in kmb~

kolej mara banting

seyes ckp, first2 dpt taw dpt klj, agak dissappointed r di situ. see, i kind of have dis thought dat yg g kolej ni loser je, & da good ones r sent 2 da univercities. huih, how wrong was i..

ni ms awl2 gak r, rs cm lps orientasi kot?

di surau~ smbl dgr ceramah, smbl amek gmba. multitasking, ib learner profile kn ;)

i can remember clearly da 1st day in kmb, like it was juz yesterday(ok, not exactly like yesterday, but u get my point rite?) ms msk kmb xtaw pn da smpai, tgk bangunan ingatkn "owh, juz another cikai building along da street" rupa2nye, amek ko, ni r kmb! ib world school. ms 2 xyah ckp r, mmg x penah dgr pn pe mende r ib ni.. nk eja ib pn surprisingly susah. tp xpe, tgh semangat kn br lps dpt result spm. dak yg nk msk kmb mana x hepi dgn result dowg(maybe ade, wallalhualam, but 4 me, mmg allah nk bg, syukur sgt2)

k, nk cite psl feeling2 ni..

x dinafikn ms sem 1 bley thn semangat gak r nk studi. b4 klas baca dlu, wat omwork on time, x r last minit sume2.. ceh, kire mcm bes r feeling masa 2, rasa teratur.. However, nk2 exam sem 1, xtaw nape, dicampakkn pula rasa malas. kononnya da studi awl2, da kureng sket semgat nk studi b4 exam. pahal ms ni r plg crucial. then, result pn mcm ....(isi tpt kosong) haih..."tp xpe, nikn 1st sem, xtaw format paper lg, pulun utk next sem lak'' (nk sdpkn hati)

 sile pecy yg skang i da ade purple belt, juz b4 coklet belt (bkn slalu daku riak)

miss being around these sweet people~

ni time class based

fantastic 5!! =)

2 la dye permulaan pertapakan virus, penyakit, disease b'nama "malas" dlm diri nurul fatihah binti zainudin ni. at dat time, begituku m'agung2kn zmn kegemilanganku di mrsm balik pulau (k, fine not dat gemilang but it was better than in kmb, so i thought..) masa kt mrsm terbalik sket cite dye. mula2 msk 2 mcm malas sket. ye r, tgk dak2 ni g prep tdo, nk gak r tdo.. eh, kuat t'pengaruh gak i ni, dgn sekeliling. then, ade streaming. & i'm not selected 2 be in da elite class. t'cabar jua keakademikanku(hentam je guna istilah ni, mcm bley msk je). start from there, mmg studi x henti2, masa riadah & even masa kt surau tunggu org solat pn natap buku. pastu dinaikkn semangat oleh kakak yg jaga my blok, yg mmg rajin gle2 & not 2 mention very comel, slalu ranked 2nd in her batch! legend2.. so, sem seterusnye, with His will, dpt r msk klas elite 2.. he3. puas hatiku. then, semangatku utk studi mkn b'kobar2.

suria da best!! (tyme mrsm leklau la)

muke2 nk g mkn free~ ngeh3

b'bbq di hari2 akhir

Mmg slalu t'pk di kepala otakku, "why can't i be mcm kt mrsm dlu? semangat nk studi mmg sentiasa ade" tp kt kmb, masyaallah, liatnye nk bkk buku.. kuat tdo plak 2, kuat mkn xyah ckp r(perkara normal kot kt kmb, ha3 =p) xtaw nape, dlm pale ingat nk wat omwork je, tp x cube nk baca dlu, coz takot x smpt. ib kn x t'duga, ade je meeting last minit, then ble exhausted(pnt r sgt) mlm 2, t'tdo, bgn pg esok, gelepor x siap omwork.. hu3. ssh gak nk khusyuk semayang. but then again, can't blame it on others, jelas2 menunjukkn ketdkcekpan dri megurus masa. mmg lain sgt2 dr tyme spm. masa spm, cara blaja mmg terus terang m'hapal je, dok pehe pong, m'hapal je.. Tp nk hapal pe dlm math HL?! hah, kena setempek! Then nk dkt pekse ib r, br dpt cara blaja yg btol. i mean, selama ni, ble revise(slalunye ble ade test je r) cuma refer ib guide je, utk bio bley r thn, tp chem, nk dkt final ib, br nmpk betapa bestnye nota mr.lim masa kt klas. hu2. tp xpe, 2 nsb baik taw, kalo xtaw lgsg, lg parah kn.. dats another thing i've learned in kmb, everything yg berlaku mesti ade hikmahnye. cume kte rajin nk pk ke x..

its like a self discovery. dont ever compare urself with another. u have 2 noe urself, so, nk tulis sket r what i have discovered to be my studying method:

• b4 studi, sila plan dlu nk studi, kol bape sume2. mcm target r.. crucial gle utk da nite b4 exam, 2 make sure u finish all da syllabus. kalo x, jd mcm dlu, terlebey fokus on da unimportant part smpai u miss 2 cover thoroughly da important part.
• dont read anything new on da day of exam. itulah usefulnye method di atas ni. masa ni cume utk scan da whole thing. ha, so prepare urself a nice summary notes.
• pliz make cross reference msa studi. don juz depend on 1 material, insufficient kot!
• u cannot juz read, sile wat aprropriate latihan. kalo x smpt, baca. pandai2 r k.. but make sure u UNDERTSAND(kalo bley nk underline, bold, highlight dis word, superpowerful word when ur studying ib)
• hmm, pe lg ek.. ha, ofkos, don ever studi last minit, kalo lmbt lg nk exam pn xpe, repetition will do u good in da future =)

note 2 self : sile refer 4 ur future study

2 je r, takat ni. nanti pnjg2 sgt, x best plak..

intro + a lil bit of homie..

hmm, assalamualaikum..

for starters, juz wanna share da reason y i've created dis blog.

dr kmb lg, ati ni meronta2 nk luahkn perasaan t'pendam (k, abaikn keskemaan ayat di situ). then, sj ble org wat fb, sebok gak nk wat, ble org wat blog nk gak wat blog. heh2 (x nk buta it r konon) & as an alternative to channel my feelings in (hopefully) da right way.. kalo asik pndm je, x healthy 4 my liver (kalo wat diari nanti dok takot org bc, private kot psl feeling2 ni) tp blog ni mcm interesting utk u express ur feeling without exposing it to much. u noe what i'm sayin?

k, cukup r mukadimah 2..

actually nk story2 sket about my attitude at home, which i myself mmg x b'kenan. but see, dats my problem, i owez noe, owez realise what i've done wrong, what i should've not done, what my responsibilities r & yg sewaktu dgnnyer.. but my action reflects otherwise.hu2. sometimes i hate myself so bad, i dunno what to do, i juz go 2 sleep! (hey, dat is my way of releasing stress) ble tdo, i can forget everything & most of da time when i'm awake, x r rasa setensi b4 tdo.

ckp psl tdo, ini r yg mengundang "semburan2" dr org2 rumah, esp my mum. every detik, ade je keinginan nk minx maaf coz da disappoint dye, but i'm afraid, if i do so, she will expect me not to do it again, which is something i can't guarantee. hu3

everytime blk sebenanya, ade je list of things dat i've b'azam nk wat. most of them concerns not disappointing my parents. dont get me wrong, i didn't do anything dat offenses them, its dat da things i didn't do yg upset me, which i strongly believe leads to their dissappoinment.. hu2. no need to go in details, tp cukup r katakn, perangai malas ku mkn m'jd2 sjk dok kmb ni (trying so hard not 2 blame it on kmb, which i will spill on u da details later, on another post)

but, there's no place like home! rumahku syurgaku r katakn..

mmg, sape yg xske dok umah, esp ble da abes ib, time is no longer a barrier. heh2. blh wat ske ati, tdo tnpa rasa b'slh, on9 tnpa rasa m'bazir waktu, xyah lg plan nk studi pe, omwork pe sume2.. hilang woo tensi2 ib ni. ah, heaven dunia.. nama pn dunia, ofkos r, sementara. so, i'm gonna enjoy every single second of it. tdo, mkn, on9, rutin harian.. ha2. bes bai..

tp x dinafikn, boring gak r dok terperap je kt umah. da r, abah cabut astro, coz katanya dpt tb singapore. pahal, sbb xde org sgt kt umah (jimat ni) & aiman upsr thn ni, ilin lak pmr thn dpn. ha2. blaja korg, jgn x blaja! he2. but, no worries, daku ade backup plan. telahku kumpul byk movies & korean series utkku lyn di rumah. setkt ni, my girl, boys over flower & hanaza..kimi.. (ntah pape ntah tajuknye, tp cite dye seyes best & lawak) sudah ku khatamkn. muahaha.. sepatotnye, khatamkn quran tp khatamkn lain, insyaallh yg itu pn tergetku juga..

eh, i have to stop now, nanti cite byk2 smpai ble x abes. kuat b'cerite jugak i ni ek.. (sori x bese guna sy, kalo rasa geli guna i, jgn r gitu.. he2. daku mmg begini, ske mix2 sket englsh dgn malay, tp hrp x broken english r, tp kalo ade clap sket2, buat2 x nmpk je la ye. =p)