intro + a lil bit of homie..

hmm, assalamualaikum..

for starters, juz wanna share da reason y i've created dis blog.

dr kmb lg, ati ni meronta2 nk luahkn perasaan t'pendam (k, abaikn keskemaan ayat di situ). then, sj ble org wat fb, sebok gak nk wat, ble org wat blog nk gak wat blog. heh2 (x nk buta it r konon) & as an alternative to channel my feelings in (hopefully) da right way.. kalo asik pndm je, x healthy 4 my liver (kalo wat diari nanti dok takot org bc, private kot psl feeling2 ni) tp blog ni mcm interesting utk u express ur feeling without exposing it to much. u noe what i'm sayin?

k, cukup r mukadimah 2..

actually nk story2 sket about my attitude at home, which i myself mmg x b'kenan. but see, dats my problem, i owez noe, owez realise what i've done wrong, what i should've not done, what my responsibilities r & yg sewaktu dgnnyer.. but my action reflects otherwise.hu2. sometimes i hate myself so bad, i dunno what to do, i juz go 2 sleep! (hey, dat is my way of releasing stress) ble tdo, i can forget everything & most of da time when i'm awake, x r rasa setensi b4 tdo.

ckp psl tdo, ini r yg mengundang "semburan2" dr org2 rumah, esp my mum. every detik, ade je keinginan nk minx maaf coz da disappoint dye, but i'm afraid, if i do so, she will expect me not to do it again, which is something i can't guarantee. hu3

everytime blk sebenanya, ade je list of things dat i've b'azam nk wat. most of them concerns not disappointing my parents. dont get me wrong, i didn't do anything dat offenses them, its dat da things i didn't do yg upset me, which i strongly believe leads to their dissappoinment.. hu2. no need to go in details, tp cukup r katakn, perangai malas ku mkn m'jd2 sjk dok kmb ni (trying so hard not 2 blame it on kmb, which i will spill on u da details later, on another post)

but, there's no place like home! rumahku syurgaku r katakn..

mmg, sape yg xske dok umah, esp ble da abes ib, time is no longer a barrier. heh2. blh wat ske ati, tdo tnpa rasa b'slh, on9 tnpa rasa m'bazir waktu, xyah lg plan nk studi pe, omwork pe sume2.. hilang woo tensi2 ib ni. ah, heaven dunia.. nama pn dunia, ofkos r, sementara. so, i'm gonna enjoy every single second of it. tdo, mkn, on9, rutin harian.. ha2. bes bai..

tp x dinafikn, boring gak r dok terperap je kt umah. da r, abah cabut astro, coz katanya dpt tb singapore. pahal, sbb xde org sgt kt umah (jimat ni) & aiman upsr thn ni, ilin lak pmr thn dpn. ha2. blaja korg, jgn x blaja! he2. but, no worries, daku ade backup plan. telahku kumpul byk movies & korean series utkku lyn di rumah. setkt ni, my girl, boys over flower & hanaza..kimi.. (ntah pape ntah tajuknye, tp cite dye seyes best & lawak) sudah ku khatamkn. muahaha.. sepatotnye, khatamkn quran tp khatamkn lain, insyaallh yg itu pn tergetku juga..

eh, i have to stop now, nanti cite byk2 smpai ble x abes. kuat b'cerite jugak i ni ek.. (sori x bese guna sy, kalo rasa geli guna i, jgn r gitu.. he2. daku mmg begini, ske mix2 sket englsh dgn malay, tp hrp x broken english r, tp kalo ade clap sket2, buat2 x nmpk je la ye. =p)