my to do list

i juz wanna list a few things that i think i should do:

• pasni xnk pkai tudung & baju matching sgt or terang sgt. tudung yg licin yg ssh jd is a no-no. nanti asik dok betol2 tudung je, mesti org ingat asik nk cover je minah ni, hu3. sori, kalo bab tudung mmg xle x t'urus, kalo org lain, maybe risau psl bju ke pe. even kalo bju kurung pn x gosok, kalo x nmpk kedut sgt. tshirt ape tah lg, mmg x penah gosok. 2 r, tudung la yg m'jd isuku.. hu3. dats me..
• kene limitkn masa on9. seriesly.. =_=
• fokus ms blaja!! jgn dok megelamun.. UNDERSTAND! bkn  hafal/bace je. & ofkos ms blaja dun even think nk on9! obviously blaja 1/10, selebeynye lagha... haihhh
• will never buy chocolate spread da!!!! rase cm da abeskn 10 bekas (which da jd penyumbang kpd "penebatku" yg sdg m'biak dgn vigorousnye) since dtg cni. i know right, gle punye byk! smpai leh abeskn bekas yg 400ml tu dlm 2 ari, juz u imagine.. si chocoholic. kalo kempunan sgt, beli dark coklet je, less fat & bitter sweet. plus, good 4 ur memory too. 

owh, have i not mentioned how fat i think i am? yes, sy rase saye sgt GEMOK! rase mcm dipam2 sejak dtg czech. tp saye suke sgt mknn.. well, sekurang2nye dlm blk jgn ade mknn yg m'gemokkn. pdhal nk cri mknn halal 2 ley thn ssh, but still mkn byk = makin kembg. Mule2 x kisah, asalkn sy chat n stuff(ceh, nk sdpkn hati la 2). Tp ble melihatkn bju yg semkn byk xle pakai (bkn x muat, tp mkn ketat). kena la pk gak kn... hu3

ps:i wish i can stop pk psl bende ni, its been 'haunting me sjk dr mrsm lg'. kdg2 mls nk pk, tp xle gak, coz this involve ur health man! jln sket da semput, mane xnye, lgsg x exercise. nk b'peluh kt cni, jgn arap! suhu pn negative tiap2 ari.

byk lg sebenanye, tp da list lame da dlu dlm pale otak, cume wat 2 on off. hu3. yg kt ats ni, kire baru lg la... so, lets hope saye m'praktikknye~

juz a thought..

sngnye kte nk judge org.. sdgkn kte bknnye leh nmpk pn hati org 2 pn kn.. (insyaallah, tujukn kt dri sendiri gak) i noe, kdg2 action kte mgkn sng menimbulkn pelbagai assumption. tp lykke ke kte nk pndg serong pd org. bgs sgt ke kte ni.. 

kalo x nk hati keluh kesah slalu, i think its best 2 juz b'sangka baik. yeah, walopn org 2 mgkn not as good mcm yg kte sangka, but atleast u can save ur heart from become "rotten". drpd dok sangka buruk kt org, nanti end up x puas ati je. nauzubillah...x tujukn pd sape2, juz a thought.

but ofkos kena la ade lagkah b'jage2. pndai2la pk, kte sume ni kn ade akal utk b'pk, ade hati utk memahami... again, dis is only from my point of view yg xtaw la btol ke x.. juz a thought...

lgpn, there r no right & wrong answer right..
(rasa lega dpt luahkn..) =)

=')

tenkiu 4 giving me reason 2 not open my fb slalu~

refreshing my soul..

hmm, indeed it was.. at first, dgn seronoknye syaitan m'bisikkn, "ko penah dgr mende ni, watpe dgr lg", "nanti ko rase diperli lg (pdhal itu adalah kata2 dr allah!! hey, kalo allah x syg u, die xkn bg u ujian & siap bg nasihat lg. but y do u take it da negative way??)", "kalo x ikhlas watpe g, sia2 je"..bcoz i know 4 da fact dat, if u do something bkn dgn hati yg ikhlas, ia adalah sia2 di mata allah. (then, melalui pengalamn sendri ia xkn kekal lama, bcoz u do it sbb manusia..)  i've always thought that, saye ni kalo dipush, lg akan rebel.. kalo wat mende x ikhlas, we only end up feeling x puas ati or t'paksa. i was shown that i was wrong AGAIN.. seryesly, everyday is a self discovery. also, da more u learn about others, da more u learn about urself. Slalu je dgr, mule2 t’paksa, lama2 ikhlas la. Well, honestly x penah pecy pn dgn dis phrase, tp ble b’laku kt dri sendri.. ha, br hg taw!

warning: dis post gonna b a long one~ da try nk pndkkn, tp xleh, byk sgt nk luah.. 

funny how ur tear gland can break so easily.. dlu cm pelik, nape la ade org ni sng sgt nangis, sket je bole nangis.. now when it happened 2 u.. pe cer? ha3. i do surprisingly surprise myself. Even ayat yg kte slalu dgr, da bole wat air mata trun dgn laju. X agak2 btol, ade org lak 2 kt sekeliling. Sy ni leceh sket, once da start nanges ssh gle nk bent, mmg perlukn kekontrolan dri yg sgt kuat. Psl idung b’air 2 x yah ckp ar, smpai ade akak yg offer tisu. Peerghhh, mane nk ltk muke.hu3. 

actually sy takot nk ckp, sy tkt nk tnjk pe yg sy rs, pe yg sy tahu.. coz, I’m too afraid dat I will not do what I had said. Sy lebey selesa b’diam dri & m’dgr org b’kata2.. from there, i learn so much..

"da more quiter u r, da more u can listen" (x ingat dpt dri mane, tp i like it) =)

“namun, hanya sedikit daripada kamu yg b’syukur” dat does it.. instead of rs diperli (in not a good way), kali ni sy rs sgt sebak yg amat . Betapa x b’syukurnye daku, slalu dikelilingi shbt2 yg baik, slalu didengarkn dgn pengisian rohani. Tp bisikn syaitan yg diikutnye.. sigh~ pdhal, dr dlu lg da diberi p’dedahan dgn sume ni… betapa x b'syukurnye kamu fatihah.. our winter story, meluangkn masa with these great sisters & hearing all of these "ayat2 cinta", makes me feel so.....  can’t really describe it with words. 

dlu x phm sgt dis phrase "kalo cwn yg penuh dgn air, kalo kte isi lg dgn air, air 2 akan tumpah. jd kosongknla cwn, sebelum nk ltk air"  ok, fine i'm not really good at memorizing da exact word. but 4 me, yg penting u FAHAM pe mksdnye.. kalo kte rs kte taw sume i mean byk bende, we tend 2 jd mls nk dgr mende yg konon kte penah dgr 2.. hmm, it really hit me dat time. walopn kte penah dgr mende 2, but sometime we need 2 hear it again, coz u will get a more deep & refreshed understanding.. =)

then, ade ke pemuda mcm sultan muhammad al-fateh & salehuddin al-ayyubi. well, i strongly think there is.. ;) walopn maybe x sehebat mereka, tp sdh cukup utk m'buatku kagum.. 

t’ingat lak ceramah mlm jumaat kt kmb dlu(asik2 t’ingat). Kalo sorg 2 nk wat baik, tp sume org kt sekeliling die wat jht, xke ssh die nk wat baik. Pastu, kalo sorg 2 nk wat jht, tp sume org kt sekeliling die wat baik, x ke ssh die nk wat jht. Ofkos, die akan nk wat baik gak kn sedikit sebyk. See, ur environment do play a part. so, trying 2 create a good environment at home wouldn’t b dat hard rite? After all u always got allah as ur supporter, always~ =)

see, abah i do wear da coat u bought 4 me.. ;) (tp xnk abah bc my blog, segan r plak eden) cume i look funny in it & ofkos bulat in it. ok, i noe jgn dislhkn bju.. fine~ (pasni, xnk amek gmba sgt la.. T_T) plus, mane de org pkai yg btol "ketak2" like da one i'm wearing, but i do appreciate it. sy hargai sume hadiah yg org bg, so bgla sy hadiah, 4 sure sy hargai!! he2.

owh, did i 4got 2 mention i went skiing? (da konfius between skate & ski. skate gune kasut tapak die nipis & tajam. ski guna tapak leper & pnjg. ingat 2 fatihah  =_=) yeah, its a tough sport. especially skiing. ble jth 2, sgt ssh yg amat nk bgn. sbb tapak die pnjg sgt & not 2 mention very slippery. pastu, mestila ski kt gunung kn, so mestila ade curam sket2, bape kali gak r, laju je "ski" ke bwh. syok mmg syok, kalo nk jth kt pokok2 & segala mende alah kt bwh bukit 2. so, kena la jth dgn style eh sengaja utk mengelakkn bhy. ye, kami ade praktis jth. cane? juz rebahkn bdn anda ke snow yg maha sejuk itu & u did it!! ok, sume org ley buat~ =_=  anyway, arini i juz can't seem 2 stop m'gigil. tgk org lain rilek je, i mean x dela gigil2 like me, terasa over lak. da try xnk nmpk obvious sgt, tp ade gak yg perasan.. sori, bkn nk menunjuk sejuk sgt, tp refleksi semulajd bdn, (shivering helps 2 generate heat during decrease in temperature kn.. so, i guess dat's what happen 2 me..) try gak nk control, tp ble da lupe xyah control gigil, bdn gigil blk. ish3..blk2 ni, aim mmg nk tgk suhu bape kt laptop. negative belas2!! no wonderla beb... T_T even ms tulis ni pn dlm bilik, pakai sweater, heater x function ke pe?! *emo tbe2.

my god!!! mata kiri sakit gle nk mati! asik b'air & xleh bkk.. literally. ble sejuk tbe2, start merah2, ble pns tbe2, mulela ngade2 nk merah. skang menanggung seksa. ble mata merah, idung pn b'air. mule la sok sek, sok sek.. ade org ingat nk nangis (well, maybe part of it) eh, tbe2 t'ingat ms tulis ni(x plan pn nk tulis, mmg slalu die akn dtg sendr ms tulis), allah bg kte sakit kn utk kafarah dosa. ye, p'hapusan dosa. rs seronok lak tbe2, coz taw dosa sgtla byk..  tenkiu allah... =)

bhahahah!!

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tbe2 terasa nk tgk cite hanakimi, tp x smpt nk save dlm lappy br. seyes, lwk gle nk mampos!! ha3. anyway, enjoyssss~ (obviously ptt xde 's', tp nk ltk gak,coz it sounds funny, well atleast 2 me heh)

always there 2 lend a helping hand

benti jap bace chem, ngantok = x dpt msk sgt. so,b'blogging jap. fb cm da bosan dok stalk org. ;p anyway, t'ingat lak peristiwa2 "berair". i've always thought dat saye x mdh nangis, x mdh terasa. but why lately sng sgt sebak, sng sgt nk kuar air mata. pdhal xde pape pn~ (yela pompuan, at those times)

hmm... i've always thought dat saye ni bkn jenis emo, cpt terasa bagai. but, it turns out i can be quite sensitive on certain things (bkn sume). skang, everyday is more like a self discovery. skali nangis 2, ssh sgt nk bent, lg2 kalo ade org perasan, mkn laju plak la air mata trun. kte dok iye2 nk sorok, die ley prasan, g tego lak 2. what da fish! do u know how long it takes 4 me 2 stop crying! ha3. xde r, phm je, maybe org concern. thanx.

anyway, back 2 da title di atas (pnjg lak mukadimah). jumaat ari 2 r, rs sgt ditolong. mcm ni, ade credit test chem. supposedly sy x dpt pn credit 2 (dpt 1/3 markah). mase 2 mmg tgh thn je nk leleh, dlm ati rs cm nk lari toilet da.. yela, sume org lps kott, sy je x! mind u, i do study k.. but maybe not hard & smart enough. siap doa & tawakal sgt2, nk pass. tp lecturer 2 cm tunggu sume blk, bru dtg kt sy. die soh sy solve 3 soaln 2 dpn die. MY GOD!! mmg t'haru nk matii r.. so, t'hegeh2 la sy wat dpn die, 2 pn die byk tolong. in the end, i got my credit!!! yabedabedoooo!!! pastu ms nk blk, bole plak nangis dlm bs. ish, memalukn btol. ade senior lak 2. tp xla nangis esak2, agak2 r.. nangis diam2, tp membe seblh still prasan, mana taknye sket2 soksek.. soksek.. (esak sket2). ntah r, rs x lyk sgt.coz ms wat dpn lecturer, byk kot die tolong. lg 2 group lak dpt lecturer yg strict. bkn 3 soaln, 6 soalan die bg. rs sgt, allah permudahkn utkku. rs dibantu sgt oleh allah..

then, baru2 ni.. lebey krg same, lwt anta prorocol bio. bknnye pe, isic kad rosak, xle nk print! tensi btol! so, g la wat muke x malu g jmpe lecturer(kali ni pompuan), kate nk anta lwt sket. coz kalo ade 3 black dot(black dot 2 slalu die wat utk bdk yg anta protocol lmbt & yg sewaktu dgnnye), kene amek credit test bio lak, accumulated 2 bai.. (da la EXAM chem nk dkt, EXAM bkn test). x psl2, kene studi bio yg byk2 tu, coz test kitorg wat every week(every subjek pn gitu) so, 1 bab je r. chem da la digembar-gemburkn senior sbg killer subject, mcm pure math kt ib nun. but anyway, to my pleasent surprise die bg & xde black dot lgsg!!yippe!!!  (k, fine, b4 dis penah gak anta prorocol lmbt. ;p) 

so, here i am, again, rs sgt2 dibantu olehNya, walopn kdg2 2 rs i dun even deserve it. ok, so lps ni jgn nk ngade2 procrastinate & study mls2. study kene smart+b'fokus(fb& blog jgn dibkk!) & jgn on da day nk anta bru cbok nk print la bagai. so lets all hope sy akan m'praktikknye ek~ daaa~

“Wahai anak Adam, sempatkanlah untuk menyembah-Ku maka Aku akan membuat hatimu kaya dan menutup kefakiranmu. Jika tidak melakukannya maka Aku akan penuhi tanganmu dengan kesibukan dan Aku tidak menutup kefakiranmu.

blur..

Saye slalu blur2 mase kelas, sian org yg sit beside me. Kalo tanye pape, slalu x dpt jwb. Compared 2 kmb, kt cni mmg ade mase utk blaja. Samada u blaja atau x. sumtime I manage 2 make myself proud, but sometime x. dok melagha lyn fb la, cite korea la, movie la.. haihh..Kdg2 da prepare da utk kelas, but still blur. =_=

my mum slalu tego, kalo nk jd doctor, kene alert dgn sekeliling. Ni, kalo sedare dtg umah soh tnjk jln kt jb pn xtaw, kononnya jrg ade kt umah, but still xkn 2 pn xtaw kott.. come on fatihah.. pastu, slalu sgt lupe brg. Smpai thp abah marah gle & said, “ni bkn t’lupe2 lg da, ni da jd habit” well, dad old habits die hard. K, not funny. This shouldn’t b taken lightly. So, pe solusinye? Everytime nk g mane2 or nk shopping, mesti ade list. Then, kenela work harder & ofkos work smart 2! 


U see, 4 medic student, study smart je is juz not enough. Kene study smart & hard. 
So, memndgkn awak ni (talking 2 myself) jenis x cpt sgt tgkp, prepare btol2 b4 klas so that u will know what the teacher is talking about. mase kt klas ok da, catat pe yg patut ble ckg ckp sume, tp pemahaman kureng~ the thing is, 2 yg plg pntg, phm mase klas! Hu3. 
so, lets hope saye m'praktikn sokusi ni secara b'terusan. aminn~

Hmmm, xtaw nape kt cni jd lg senyap(kdg2 la). Maybe bcoz its still new & maybe sy prefer gerak sendri. Yes, I noe, 2 have frens, we have 2 be 1. Bknnye xde kwn, ade je, girlz kn ramai. Tp mls nk ajak kuar same2 n stuff. Tp xtaw r, kt cni sy cm ssh utk jdorg yg tego dlu. Kalo org lain tego, sy blsla, kalo x, xla. Hu3. Xtaw nape, dari dulu slalu rase inferior nk tego org dlu. Lgpn kt cni x ramai melayu cm Malaysia kn. Hmmm, xpe la. Lame ok la 2. I think it’s a common thing when people feel dat they r alone n stuff, which they shouldn’t coz, u r nvr alone, coz allah is always by urside. (he3. Kebetoln lak dgr lagu maher zain) sgt2 ske dgn lagu die, make me feel tenang & sebak at da same time. 

bongeks~ =p

blah la wey!!! ko pehal??! stalker facebook, sile jgn wat aku m'carut. xpenah knl, wat2 knl lak.. ni aku hot ni, siap mengaku kekasih lak 2. bluekkk~ elok2 aku x lyn, jgn smpai aku maki hamun trus.. eee, bongek.. =p  da2, mls nk ckp byk2 tmbh lak dosa da sedia byk. out~