know urself & be urself

HEPI NEW YEAR!!!

some people say 2010 was a bad year 4 them & ade yg kate best. & it made me think how was MY 2010? honestly....

x bape ingat da... =_=. typical fatihah.  & mls nk ingat semata2 nk tulis kt cni. ha3. anyway da 1 thing yg i remember really clearly is that. U JUZ GOT 2 KNOW URSELF & B URSELF!! bcoz its da best damn thing ever(ha3. k, tru ayat ilin) but it is sooo true~ don't compare urself with another. ofcoz, utk hal2 t'tentu bgs gak kn like utk bla3.(mls nk tulis, sume org leh pk psl ni) what i want 2 say here is, jgn jd mcm lalang. ble ade angin tiup ke kanan, g kanan, angin tiup ke kiri, g kiri. mcm 2 r lebey krg.. (mls nk ingat da exact phrase). betapa mudahnye kte utk dipengaruhi olh sekeliling kte, environment kte. i mean hey, it happens 2 me all da time. 

ble org nk dg r lagu, nk gak dgr. aishhh, know urself la fatihah oiii.. kalo dgr lagu ms blaja yg msk nye bkn mende yg awk dok study, tp lagu. & kalo dgr 2, mesti nk nyanyi same. WAJIB. dunno y, i'm juz like dat, i guess. then, dok fokus nk ikut pitching lagu, sdgkn bace slide yg same 4 da past 1 hour, lagu lak da ulang 4 kali da~. ish3.. so, pliz3. know urself & b urself. ms blaja, fokus btol2. org lain, lain cite. dorg maybe blh studi smbl dgr lagu. dat's them, not u k~

nk msk bab yg a bit sensitip ni.. ble org sume nk jd alim?? awk pn t'ikotla.bcoz xnk jd yg left out. who wanna be? but mostly, sbb nk jaga hati kwn. smpai kdg2 2 x ikhlas.. sigh~ dun get me wrong, i like dgr bab2 agama & stuff. its juz dat well, i know it won't last. lain taw doing things bcoz of people & doing things bcoz it comes from ur heart. i've decide that i wont do something melainkn i btol2 nk & it really comes from my heart.but mind u, i do have my own prinsip ok.. tp x perlu la dinyatakn di sini. juz pliz dun sng2 judge org, sgt3 x suke.. hu3. then, ble ade environment yg agak melaghakn, pn nk ikut gak?? yesss, sy sgt sukekn hiburan, but then again, i have my own prinsip. =)

sometimes ade org kate hipokrit kalo dgn famili kte bising tp dgn kwn or esp dpn boys jd ala2 pemalu.. hello, excuse me, y does it always have 2 come 2 boys?? like i said, i do something bcoz dat is who i am. kalo sy nk pkai tudung elok2, bju yg lawa ke(kononnya) its not 4 them. it is 4 my own satisfaction, sape yg suke nmpk hodoh, tell me? pastu, sy mmg mcm 2. i can be as crazy as hell kalo dgn famili. again, dunno y. dat is juz who i am. ok, maybe i know. bcoz da biasa sgt dgn dorg & they know sy mcm mane & sy taw dorg mcm mane. so, nk highlight kt cni, sy plg suke spend time dgn famili. bcoz frens come & go. but famili will always stay & be there when u needed them. i'm not saying sy ni x kwn dgn org, its juz dat i tend 2 bcome shy with my friends. again, this is not hipocrasy. that is juz me.. esp kalo dgn yg x knl sgt. tp exception utk org yg sy btol2 rpt.. sy jenis yg kalo sume org nk ckp,sy jd mls nk ckp. tp kalo xde org nk ckp, i will be the 1 who's talking. tp tgk keadaan gak r, kalo ms lecture sunyi sepi, lecturer tanya sape2 nk jwb, xkn nk ngada2 nk ckp lak kn.. it depends. but most of the time, sy akan jd p'diam. bcoz i learn so many time dat, kalo kte xtaw sgt psl mende 2, then nk ckp gak, ur only making a fool out of urself. k, sy mmg jenis blur2 about byk mende. so, lgla mulut t'ttp rapat. tp leceh gak, coz takot org ingat kte ni sombong. solution? simple, murahknla senyuman. "senyum, xperlu kata apa2" lgpn, senyum 2 kn sedekah. =) 

pastu, i learn dat we can learn A LOT from our environment. environment here doesn't juz mean, what's around u, yg u blh nmpk, even dunia tenet ni pn byk m'buka mataku. through fb & esp through blog. there, kte blh tgk baaaaaaanyak p'dpt.. i mean, xla kte idop dlm dunia kte je kn, rs kte je btol & all dat stuff. ia sgt m'buka minda & made u think about a lot of stuff, right? so, jdla manusia yg bijak & amekla pengajarn mane2 yg patot..

then, goin through my own blog. i've realised dat sy byk b'pk negative toward myself (kdg2). eventhough, ade a few friends & my mum sendri kate sy b'fikiran +ve. but i can't do that toward myself, bcoz i know myself & i know i dun deserve the +ve thought. again, dun get me wrong. i'm positive about the things happening to me, mcm dianta ke czech instead of ireland(pnjg sgt benefit die, maybe cite on another post), TOK prob(still dlm proses m'digestnye) dll...its juz dat my attitude yg sy x suke.. yela, mls(kalo prasan in da 2nd paragraph byk m'jelaskn), suke berangan, suke manjakn diri kdg2(tdo+mkn+on9 byk+studi bape kerat je) & byk lg, tp malu la i nk cite~ aha3. well, melwn nafsu itu kn jihad t'bsr. so, dun ever give in to bisikn syaitan. (eventhough u fail misereably most of da time), but dun ever give up!! chayok2. ha, another thing, sy mmg suke memotivasikn diri. see, positive r 2~ =)

so, i am welcoming 2011 dgn tgn t'buka & may u corakkn my year with blissful memories~