hai. lama x berblog. teringin jgk kadang2 tu nak berblog, tapi malas. hu2. banyak je mende nak cite. tapi takde mood or takde masa. ceyyy, macam bz sangat je kata takde masa. but true in a sense that i rather use my precious time to sleep, spend 'quality time with my family', layan kpop & kdrama dan ye facebook. you see, sekarang i tengah keje kat farmasi, 9 jam or more 6 hari seminggu, so besela macam orang bekerja yang lain, penat. heh. dekat je dengan rumah, jalan kaki tak sampai 5 minit. jimat duit transport & makan(kadang2 bawak bekal). takde uniform (tapi macam bakal ada. tak suka T_T), pekerja semua perempuan and surau, tandas semua ada. oh, bazar/pasar malam pun depan farmasi je (really come in handy time pose ari tu). lepas tu everyday mingle dengan ubat (bukak dictionary farmasi, u know familiarise yourself dengan kandungan ubat & what it does etc..) kira macam its the perfect-tengah-berhenti-belajar-sekejap-tapi-bakal-sambung-belajar-semula-job for me. although, i'm not gonna lie. its been pretty rough at the beginning. kena marah dengan senior sebab lambat catch up, kena tengking dengan bos sebab tak fulfil expectation die, kena hadap supllier & customer yang gatal, gaji tak berapa nak lumayan, cuti seminggu sekali, and a few fussy customer. biasala tu kan, adat bekerja.
what i found out was, stress bekerja & stress belajar sangatlah lain. and personally, i prefer stress belajar. *sekarang tengah tengok hana kimi versi korea(to the beautiful you), baru episod 1. rasa macam rindu sangat perasaan first2 daftar kat uni, reloading barang kat bilik baru, jumpa roomate baru, getting ready to class, meeting new friends and BELAJAR BERSUNGGUH2. seryes kangen bangettt...
yyep minho(shinee) & sulli(fx) are the main reason why i watch this. lagipun hana kimi(jepun) lawak & best gile kottt. kira episod 1 ni okla. skang jarang tengok kdrama, sebab lambat sangat storyline die, lagi suka tengok variety macam we got married, running man etc. blh tgk perangai sebenar dorang & more spontan, and ofkos lagi lawak. hihi
besok patutnya nak gi sunway pyramid jumpa irah si pengantin baru. (sedih sangat ok tak dapat gi wedding die kat terengganu, dah plan dah dengan jiha nak naik bas sume2. abah2, ari tu saya balik dari czech transit kat istanbul ke malaysia,sorang2 selamat je. ni nak pegi terengganu je pun tak bagi, siap ada kawan teman lagi. hu3. kalau keluar, balik lepas maghrib sikit je pun da masam muka. but, i guess that's just proves he cares so much about me, us, yela anak semua pompuan, yang laki tu baru nak tukar suara. ehem). nak sangat jumpa member2 study, tapi sunway macam jauh sangat, perjalanan je nak lebih sejam, tu belum kena tunggu bas bagai. aigooo. i guess. pagi besok kena call die la, confirmkan cane, maybe tukar venue ke.
moving on, as u all know, sekarang musim kawen. banyak gila invitation kawen. and honestly, it sucks actually going to weddings knowing that ur single. dont get me wrong, suka sangat gi wedding, seryesly hepi sangat dapat jumpa kawan, hepi utk kawan yang akan menjalani fasa baru dlam hidup die, its just that, well, i dont have everything figured out macam diorang. diorang akan habis belajar then have a stable job dengan gaji yang memuaskan and they already have someone sekufu untuk spend the rest of their happy life. insyaallah. and of course they deserve it. what i'm feeling now is not envy, its inferior. (oh god, so sorry for my deteriorating english. it just comes naturally. i'm literally writing down my thoughts which kadang2 dalam english berterabur). but really, sekarang i need to focus untuk sambung belajar. u dont know how much i wanted to prove to myself that i'm not this loser person who kept being sedih about kena balik. u dont know how i longed to be proud of myself. to actually say i'm not embarrassed of myself. aishh, drama lagi. belum lagi masa untuk fikir pasal jodoh (eventhough i always do) berhenti berharap and seriously just do your best in everythng you do. yoshhhh! (tak habes2 nak motivatekan diri sendiri).
sorila macam entri budak skema, besela lama tak berblog. heh. peace
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